All my life I've been big.

But never did I think what happened would ever take place.

I grew up in Martins Ferry, OH and I've been dealt some very tough obstacles in my life other then weight..

I was scared by a gym teacher and had many bouts of anxiety and depression even suicidal tendancies.

Being big got to be normal because doctors would never give a good reason for me.

It was always he'll grow out of it or he eat too much. But it was far from that.

When I was 16 I decided to get a job and had to have a physical for the school to give me a permit.

My doctor noticed signs and decided to have my testosterone checked..

after that they discovered my levels were abnormally low and started me on treatments..

I started hormone treatments.

They seemed to work and then not work.

so it was an up and down hill battle.

Through all of this i found the Angel of my life Roberta.. we met online in 2000 and hit it off from the beginning... something just clicked and we found our other halves...

little did she or i know the future ahead of us.

in 2002 we made a dream come true... she became my wife...

i could have never imagined being blessed with such a wonderful perosn ....

then 2003 came and we both moved to Columbus, OH to attend college...

by the end of that year my health had dropped...

my legs were swelling to the point of seeping water... the pain was so unbearable i had to use canes to walk the little distances i could...

i suffered severe sleep heart kept going into a-phib and the doctor i consulted through all of this told me because of this hormone disease you have, the obesity is taking over and i was going to die if nothing was done...

suddenly my world changed...

Surgery? oh my God i never wanted to ever have surgery...

but after some talks with hospitols and looking up info and some soul searching...

i realized i have to do this or i will die no matter what...

so we signed up and then found out i have to sign papers and have every doctor in the book run tests and sign papers... and i mean medicaid wanted even more then the required for this surgery it was nuts and very exhausting...

i didnt know if i could make it to surgery.....

then after a long medicaid battle and looking to get on a surgeons list the day came when finally we get the call...

a doctor took me as his patient and theyre ready to do the surgery...

i was scared more then ever ..

but i knew my other choice... and death wasnt a trip i wanted to take....

so we scheduled the surgery and then came that day..........

Proceed To My Surgery Story
The song featured on this page is Waiting For My Real Life To Begin by Colin Hay I heard this song on an episode of Scrubs and it was one that told alot of my story.. it's like one of those songs you think were written about you.. here are the lyrics
Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
I'll stand on the bow, feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down, down, down, on me
And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in
But don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin
When I awoke today, suddenly nothing happened
But in my dreams, I slew the dragon
And down this beaten path, and up this cobbled lane
I'm walking in my old footsteps, once again
And you say, just be here now
Forget about the past, your mask is wearing thin
Let me throw one more dice
I know that I can win
I'm waiting for my real life to begin
Any minute now, my ship is coming in
Iíll keep checking the horizon
And I'll check my machine, there's sure to be that call
It's gonna happen soon, soon, soon
It's just that times are lean
And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart, let the light shine in
Don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin